well right now i wish i had a friend back bc i would talk to her about anything that was on my mind and she would listen to me and try to help me get though it but then she sent me a voice mail saying that she can't be freinds wit me anymore and it broke my heart. it litterally felt like someone ripped out my heart and through it away, especally sense another friends did the some thing to me except she did it over myspace but it still hurt but atleast i newthe reason why kk did it but wit tiff i don't kno why and tiff new how it hurt me when kk did it and then tiff does it pretty much the same way and then when i asked her she said i should kno why but i don't. i know i didn't do anything wrong and the only other reason it could be is kk but last i new she didn't mind me being friends wit her and kk at the same time and it seems like when they fought i was stuck in the middle and if i had to choose between kk or tiff, i wouldn't be able to. when i asked why she said i should know but i don't and i really want to cry sometimes but i'm trying to be strong and it seems like everywhere i go something happens and i get the shit end of the stick all the time and i don't know what to do anymore sometimes i just feel like dieing and people are saying don't worry about it but it hurts so much and i've known her for a few years and i can't just forget about what we've been through and i'm still wonderin why she can't. it's like kk is the only one who truly understands bc shes been wit tiff and i know catherine is trying to understand and so is vb but they don't completely understand bc they haven't gotten to know tiff the way i have and i understand that but it's like very few people understand and i just wish most all that i new why bc i knoim not gonna forget her or truly be over her for a while bc of what we've been through together bc hses helped me through good and and bad times and even rough times whaen i needed a place to stay and her house was the one that felt like home bc icould be me and say waht was on my mind